inner dialog

(me-type-A):
-What is about me that holding me back?
(me-type-Loser) :
-I am afraid to race, my attention gets stuck in things I am afraid of.

(me-type-A) :
-But when you want to succeed in the highest level you don't have the luxury to lose your attention to things you fear.
- Place your attention solidity on the things you want to accomplish.
- Telling yourself you are a loser does not fortify you with the strength to achieve your goals

(me-type-Loser):
- where do you draw strength when you want to quit?

(me-type-A) :
 - Negative thoughts eat up the will power.
 - If you're looking for inspiration check the story of Matt Long  or learn about the stories
of Dave Scott or Mark Allen

- develop a strategy based on what the race wants from you
- make adjustments when you see how your strategy reacts to real world
- ask yourself what is holding you back from the success you're after
- commit to completion; have a commitment until you achieve the great results are inside you

Sad Rainy Afternoon

Nothing very important the last few days. Classes started again, PhD continues to freak
me out, my schedule is bad and my sleep even worse. The last few days we haven't seen the sun
something that adds some extra melancholy to my already depressed self.

Rain is also bad for the bike; it is really challenging to bike around the wet streets of College Park.
I am thinking how happy I was one year back, really optimistic about my second year in PhD, really
happy and sort of proud about Elise, with a good sleeping schedule waking up at 6.15 am and sleeping around 11.30 pm. The major thing was that I was happy and I was able to be optimistic.