dream dream dream dream dream...All I have to do is dream. So in this effort to keep track of my life I decided to blog about my dreams and try to give a reasonable explanation.
Last night I had a wonderful dream. The story goes like this. It is a football (soccer for you americans) match between my favorite team and another Greek team. My team is Panathinaikos, the other's team name is AEK. Anyway, usually the games between them are highly anticipated because they both usually have good teams.
During my dream, my team won 8-4. I know it doesn't sound like a football's game score but that was it. The initial score was 4-0 but at some point AEK managed to come back and do the score 4-4. However, my team managed to win by 4 goals at the end. During this I had a warmth feeling. Then I don't know why I found myself talking with the coach of the team about a bike ride. I was trying to give him guides about a big 88 miles ride in the mountains. At the end told him that he shouldn't worry if he can't do it with the first try because it is tough to ride for 88 miles anyway that has some good uphills. Again I had the most pleasant, calm feeling and a sense of warmth.
I know it is quite strange dream. I think the explanation about the team is the following. My team lately in Greece is in very bad condition, the most valuable players left, the owners don't give money for new good players to come and the supporters are not only worried for the upcoming year but for the future of the team itself in general. My explanation is that the team is me. I worry about the upcoming paper and lately I have many doubts about my decision to do a PhD. The importance of those things in my life according to the dream seems to be in doubt since they appeared in the form of my team that I really like and an important game; However, it is only a soccer team and it was only a game. Another explanation might be that I see the PhD as an athletic competition something that sounds very likely if I think my swimming background. The outcome of the game and the feelings that generated of course mean that I want all this effort not to be pointless and have a good result at the end.
The discussion about the bike ride with the coach of the team is equally interesting. This guy is a 65 years old man with a really friendly face but he seems very tired from the years. Right now I can associated with two people in my life. First my advisor, he seems old enough and very tired sometimes. He just bailed out from a great ride that he was doing and this fact made me feel a little bit sad since I really like the guy. I wonder If by giving him guides in the dream I was expressing my sympathy. The other person that I can associate the coach is my father. He is about that age, he seems very tired, he has a friendly face and of course I love him. The bike ride now has more obvious meaning and probably have to do with the last years of his life. The uphill part is probably that I am afraid that they will be difficult years. For me that I am not there for him, for him that he is getting older. He is my father and I love him, I think it makes sense to worry about him.
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